I wait....not because I want to but because my heart tells me to even though it is breaking inside.
Happiness is but a fleeting moment and I was happiest when i was with you..please do not say that our happiness is forever gone and nothing but a memory.
I wait patiently for a call that never comes, a letter that never arrives...and words that never seem to comfort me.
my happiness I was worried that it was too good to be true when I was with you, and hoped for the best but braced for the worst.
I wait with a pain that I can not get out of my chest because I want you to miss and love me as much as I miss and love you.
Tears have replaced my happiness, and I fear the words you say may be your last to me.
I wait because true love is hard to find and you are worth the wait, please tell me you feel the same.
Not only has my happiness been replaced but a fear grows with in me because what if.....what if....what.if.
I wait and long for your embrace once again, your kiss, your laughter and words telling me that it is all just a bad dream and you will never leave my side.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Seriously NOT ok
I have said it before but ignorance is only bliss for those who are ignorant, for everyone else you make life miserable. I don't know where I have been but I have just recently heard and seen news about the Westboro Baptist Church and I really wanted to scream. I kept watching more videos and am outraged that someone can think that way. I just want to remind you that the KKK, and Nazi's all claimed to be Christians as well. The God I know is not a God of hate, and what the message they are preaching they are training little kids to be Nazi's and are brainwashing them. Those without sin cast the first stone. The problem is that they really believe it, and it doesn't seem to matter to them. In my eyes we have terrorists in our own Nation.
It really upsets me that people can claim to be Christian and spit out a message of hate, and go to funerals of our fallen hero's and disrespect not only those being mourned, but those who are mourning. To be able to say "thank god for fallen soldiers" I would like to see what they say if they were placed in front of our brave service men and women. Shame on them and shame on anyone who believes this is good. What makes me sad, is that I don't think ANYTHING can make them see that what they are doing is not of God, and that they are doing damage. If you hate our country then why stay in America. Do not spit on those who fought for your freedoms to be able to say whatever you want. Do not spit on the families who have loved ones serving.
I have no respect for someone who is ignorant. I will not stoop to their level and wish bad things on them, but they are not of God, and certainly not of any god I would want to know. They put their own children at risk and turn the backs quickly on people in their own family. I think anyone should think twice before following someone who obviously does not know the meaning of Love in any form. People should be real careful about saying people are going to Hell, because I myself only know one judge, and he may not be happy with you for spitting out false things about Him.
So because people forget to say it enough, THANK YOU GOD for those who fought and died, and who fight and serve our country. Thank you for those of us strong enough to endure the hardships of being away from loved ones, and who understand what it truly means to love. And thank you God for being a GOD who loves, and loves all people regardless of what other people may say. I am proud to be an American, and I am not going to hell because of it. Freedom is not Free, so if you can't stand behind our military then stand in front of them.....yes that is not my own saying but its a good one.
It really upsets me that people can claim to be Christian and spit out a message of hate, and go to funerals of our fallen hero's and disrespect not only those being mourned, but those who are mourning. To be able to say "thank god for fallen soldiers" I would like to see what they say if they were placed in front of our brave service men and women. Shame on them and shame on anyone who believes this is good. What makes me sad, is that I don't think ANYTHING can make them see that what they are doing is not of God, and that they are doing damage. If you hate our country then why stay in America. Do not spit on those who fought for your freedoms to be able to say whatever you want. Do not spit on the families who have loved ones serving.
I have no respect for someone who is ignorant. I will not stoop to their level and wish bad things on them, but they are not of God, and certainly not of any god I would want to know. They put their own children at risk and turn the backs quickly on people in their own family. I think anyone should think twice before following someone who obviously does not know the meaning of Love in any form. People should be real careful about saying people are going to Hell, because I myself only know one judge, and he may not be happy with you for spitting out false things about Him.
So because people forget to say it enough, THANK YOU GOD for those who fought and died, and who fight and serve our country. Thank you for those of us strong enough to endure the hardships of being away from loved ones, and who understand what it truly means to love. And thank you God for being a GOD who loves, and loves all people regardless of what other people may say. I am proud to be an American, and I am not going to hell because of it. Freedom is not Free, so if you can't stand behind our military then stand in front of them.....yes that is not my own saying but its a good one.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Things that make you go hmmmm
Yes this was a popular song in the 90's but sometimes that expression is the only one that fits. In my sociology class we were watching a video about this young gay guy who was kicked out of his mothers house for being gay so he lived on the streets. Well another group of white supremacists came in and basically beat him practically to death simply because he was gay. YEARS later this guy who used to be a white supremacist became a better man, somehow sought rehabilitation and started to work at the Musuem of Tolernace. It was found out that this guy was the one who had helped beat this gay guy up and now they worked together. So when people tell you no one can change, this is an extreme case of change I believe but you have to let them change.
On a different side of "things that make you go hmm", have you ever wondered if facebook really helped people or hurt people. I mean think about it, if you do not have your settings set to private, complete strangers can actually see everything you are doing. BUT it does kind of help you see which of your friends are shady. I believe people can have intuition, but some people just don't listen to it. For instance, I am blessed with a great relationship. In fact he was easy on my because he didn't want to scare me off. Then we actually talked about changing our Facebook Status together. He did not hide being with me ever. Then he said "we need pictures together" and he was the first one to change his profile picture to one with us in it. Once again not hiding behind it. I have been blessed with an honest wonderful man whom I love. But many girls, and some guys too fall for people that are SHADY. And the thing is they KNOW that person is Shady yet, "oh but I love him/her" and I can't always say I followed the right road. BUT I just wish I could shake all those people and say "KNOW YOUR WORTH" if they don't see that you are worth it find someone who will because they are out there!
For instance I have a friend on Facebook. Has never admitted to anyone that he has a girlfriend. His status is actually hidden so he covers his bases I am assuming. Never has pictures of girls up on his profile, and yet there is a girl who posts on his wall that has a picture of him with her in her profile picture when ever it changes its a new picture of them together. Or there is the ones who one of them changes their status, and the other one still has single on theirs. Now if they aren't that much you can justify it, but if your news feed is always blowing up because of their activity on it then why is one of them thinking they are in a relationship and the other one not. And then there is another favorite of mine. Guys and girls who are SO into themselves, that the pictures even though they are only ever talking about how devoted they are to their significant other, are self shots, body shots and never with the person they are with. When one person is more into themselves then who they are with can it work out? Do you think the people who change their statuses yet their significant others don't, are they clueless or just don't care? Every relationship is different, but are some people waiting around in vain?
I am glad I am not single and not playing this game with my boyfriend, because we both don't like relationship games. It makes things a lot easier when both parties involved are honest and straightforward. The ones who are quick with their lies and seem shady are the ones you should worry about, because to them its all about the game till one day they lose that great thing they had or someone finds out the games they been playing. And that might leave them saying "things that make you go hmmmmm."
On a different side of "things that make you go hmm", have you ever wondered if facebook really helped people or hurt people. I mean think about it, if you do not have your settings set to private, complete strangers can actually see everything you are doing. BUT it does kind of help you see which of your friends are shady. I believe people can have intuition, but some people just don't listen to it. For instance, I am blessed with a great relationship. In fact he was easy on my because he didn't want to scare me off. Then we actually talked about changing our Facebook Status together. He did not hide being with me ever. Then he said "we need pictures together" and he was the first one to change his profile picture to one with us in it. Once again not hiding behind it. I have been blessed with an honest wonderful man whom I love. But many girls, and some guys too fall for people that are SHADY. And the thing is they KNOW that person is Shady yet, "oh but I love him/her" and I can't always say I followed the right road. BUT I just wish I could shake all those people and say "KNOW YOUR WORTH" if they don't see that you are worth it find someone who will because they are out there!
For instance I have a friend on Facebook. Has never admitted to anyone that he has a girlfriend. His status is actually hidden so he covers his bases I am assuming. Never has pictures of girls up on his profile, and yet there is a girl who posts on his wall that has a picture of him with her in her profile picture when ever it changes its a new picture of them together. Or there is the ones who one of them changes their status, and the other one still has single on theirs. Now if they aren't that much you can justify it, but if your news feed is always blowing up because of their activity on it then why is one of them thinking they are in a relationship and the other one not. And then there is another favorite of mine. Guys and girls who are SO into themselves, that the pictures even though they are only ever talking about how devoted they are to their significant other, are self shots, body shots and never with the person they are with. When one person is more into themselves then who they are with can it work out? Do you think the people who change their statuses yet their significant others don't, are they clueless or just don't care? Every relationship is different, but are some people waiting around in vain?
I am glad I am not single and not playing this game with my boyfriend, because we both don't like relationship games. It makes things a lot easier when both parties involved are honest and straightforward. The ones who are quick with their lies and seem shady are the ones you should worry about, because to them its all about the game till one day they lose that great thing they had or someone finds out the games they been playing. And that might leave them saying "things that make you go hmmmmm."
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